I wrote this song...so tell me what you think!

" I try"

i try to be patient, i try to be kind. i try to forget. I wish i could leave it behind. what's been handed to me, i don't really want. I try to remember who it is we've become. I really wish i could be with you, but there's nothing goin on.

***i try to hold on to what i know is true. you're a great person, but there's nothing between me and you. i try to take back all that i've said. i'm sorry for everything i told you i'm sorry for pulling you in. i try to make it all okey. i try to break it easy, but i can't.

i know people say that either way, someone's gonna get hurt, but its just easier thinking that it'll all be okey. i try to picture a place where we both can stay and be happy.its still hard knowing the odds of us not talking after this. I really meant it when i said i loved you, just not in the same way.

***repeat***(chorus)

why is everything spinning?spinning so out of control. i wish i could maintain my balance, and get what i came here for over with.Baby, we need to talk. I'm sorry for it all..you know i didn't mean any harm, but lets just end this now.

***repeat 2x***(chorus)

i try to take back all my feelings
i try to hold it all in
but i just can't

I'M

SINGLE

AGAIN!!!

i broke up with James today...it was hard, but i did it...he really is a super sweet guy, but things just weren't working out between us.This decision of mine, had nothing to do with him, he really is a terrific person, he treated me really well, its just something i had to do.

<333beka lynn

hey guyz not much has happened lately...

new boyfriend!!!

James....

NEW PICS!!!

my baby

my kitty cat!!! i lover her!!

john green!!!

me

me&my home girlme & my home girlmy pretty friend taylor..

ale..oh soo cluelessjkjkjk

tori and ale

mikayla(taylor's sister) with her mom's wedding vail on.

SOMETHING ME & TORI & ALE DID FOR TAYLOR...

we took a bunch of post its and wrote a bunch of stuff on each one of them and stuck them on the wall of her old room...funnnnn times...

me with tayolors mom's glasses on

me in my tanning goggles

***okay for next year:

i decided to focus less on guyz because its easier not to get hurt that way!!!

i'm not gonna get caught up in drama, cuz lets face it...its high school and there's gonna be a lot of it...grow up people! stop starting shit with each other!!!

i'm gonna get better grades!!!

&&&&i'm gonna focus a lot more on gymnastics too!!!

&&&i'm gonna be nice to everyone, and i'm not gonna be a bitch to anyone!!!

>>>to clue you guyz in...that fight with tori this year was stupid..it wasn't even all her fault!!!there was someone else that was saying a lot of it...so me and tori both found out that there was a lot being said that didn't really come from us...and i said some things back that were never needed to say!!!

<<<<this year i became someone i didn't really ever wanna be...i started hanging out with some people and the more i hung out with them the more i they affected how i talked what i thought about and if i thought at all.....but that's all about to change this year...i'm gonna have my head on strait about everything now...and i'm more relaxed...

my best friend is moving still and it just seems to be getting closer and closer!!!

she makes me who i am, but i don't have to change that much around her, but she is just like me in almost every way....sooooo i'm gonna miss not having her at the school with me, cuz she knows every secret of mine and she's the only one who excepts me, butbutbut she's stillll gonna have to introduce me to all the ray~pec hotties!!!!LOL!!!!

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THE  YEARBOOK SIGNING PARTY IS MONDAY, AUGUST 7,2006 IN THE LSW COMMONS

ALL STUDENTS CAN ENTER FROM 4PM-7PM

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO COME TO THIS SITE TO SEE IF YOU BOUGHT A YEARBOOK....

http://lswhs.leesummit.k12.mo.us/yrbklsw/yearbooksaleslist.htm

myspace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.myspace.com/livinxaxcrazyxlife

<3beka lynn

everything that was in my last update.......well forget it all....it doesn't matter anymore..i think i'm gonna try to get past whatever heartbreak stumbled upon me...

there's someone else i think i'll be alot happier with.he's not like most of the guys i've gone out with...he's a lot different...but ya know what...i think that's why i like him soo much.

i don't usually like Christina Aguilera but i like this song.

When I'm lost...in the rain
In your eyes I know I'll find the light
To light my way
When I'm scared
Losing ground
When my world is going crazy
You can turn it all around
And when I'm down you're there
Pushing me to the top
You're always there giving me all you've got

For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you-ooh

When I lose...the will to win
I just reach for you
And I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
'Cause your love is so amazing
'Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
taking me through the night

(Joined by Background Vocals)
For a shield, from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you
For the strength, to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
I turn to you-ooh,ohhh

For the arms to be my shelter
Through all the rain
For truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can rely on through anything
For the one who...I can run to...oh


(Joined by Background Vocals)
For a shield from the storm
For a friend, for a love
To keep me safe and warm, yeah yeah
I turn to you
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
For everything that's true
For everything you do
For everything that's true
I turn to you...ooh.

I MISS MY BEST FRIEND REALLYYY BAD!!!!

SHE'S MOVING AT THE END OF THIS MONTH!!!!!!!

I'M SAD!!!!!!

I WANNA CRY........AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FREAKIN' LOVE YOU TAYLOR "FRISKOE"

SOOO BEAUTIFUL

YEP WE'RE HAWT...

STILLL PRETTY HAWT..YET RETARDED...LOL..

SMOKIN' BABY!!! COMPLIMENTS 2 TAYLOR...

WHO ARE THOSE HAWTIES..OH WAIT..ITS US!!!

YEP THAT'S PRETTY MUCH HOW WE ACT 24/7..YEPS GOTTA LOVE US!!!!

I THINK...TAYLOR'S LAUGHIN' AT ME...NOT SURE THOUGH....BUT W/E...WE'RE HAWTIES!!!

YEPS STILLLLLL LAUGHIN' AT ME..IMAGINE THAT......WE'RE SEXY BEASTS!!!

HAWT HAWT HAWT!!!!DON'T YA WISH UR GF WAS HAWT LIKE US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OF COARSE YAS DO!!!

IM SAD TAYLORS LEAVING BUT SHE'S HAPPY TO GET AWAY FROM ME........JK.....WE'RE FREAKIN' SEXY..LOL..JK....

this picture looks wierd cuz i look orange.k...that's the end!!!!!!!!!!

***I WOULD BE NADA WITHOUT HER!!!!***

I CAN'T BELIEVE SHE'S ACTUALLY MOVING...I LOVERRR HER!!!

time for quotes:

  **A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart **

****you are my love, you are my life,        
my heart and soul the truest friend I've ever known,
       you are my world, all of my dreams,      
           M Y   F A N T i S Y   .   M Y   R E A L i T Y .          
       I love everything you are, yes I do. ****

**everythings so blurry
&& everyones so fake**

OH i WANT TO TASTE YOUR KiSS
     BE THE REASON FOR YOUR SMiLE
  TOUCH THE MAGiC ON YOUR SKiN
BE THE ONE THAT DRiVES YOU WiLD
                                ::TiM MCGRAW::

if i was drop dead gorgeous, perfect, and could have any guy in the world...i would still pick youu!!

AND YOU'RE THE REASON // MI HEART SKIPS A BEAT

fake. . .its the new trend
                     [ and your all the rage ]

Dear Tummy,
I'm sorry  for all the butterflies i've been
getting  but  i  swear  its  not  my fault..
i        T      '     S      --      H         I        S

 if you want me to f
                                     a
                                         l
                                            l
for you.. You have to be some-
thing worth tripping over.

&& we'll flip a coin..                                                
            heads we'll be together forever            
                                  and tails we'll flip again<3

 [..lifestooshorttobeanythingbuthappy]

0NE DAY.. YOU'RE GOiNG  TO  FIND  A  BOY
      WHO WiLL  TELL YOU YOU LOOK   BEAUTiFUL,
      TiCKLE YOU LiKE CRAZY, KiSS YOU WHEN YOU
      GET MAD, HOLD ON  TO YOU FOR  AS LONG AS
      HE POSSiBLY CAN  WHEN YOU HUG, TAKE  THE
      LONG WAY TO CLASS SO HE CAN SEE YOU,  &&
      WHO WiLL ALWAYS REMiND U HOW MUCH U MEAN
      TO HiM. && WHEN YOU FiND HiM..  YOU WiLL
         FALL IN LOVE.

"i looked back at the past and walked into the door to my future"

GOIN' TO THE MOVIES

TONIGHT WITH BOB~~FUN~~~!!!

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***i went to the movies with bob last night and it was fun!! i was really

tired though sooo he asked me like 20zillion times if i was okay.....cuz he

said i wasn't as hyper as usual...lol.....i think i might possibly hang out with

him again today.....just possibly!!!!lol...i'm glad me and him finally hung

 out!!! he's not like most of the guyz i know, and i think i just

 needed someone different...cuz they were pretty much allllllllll jerks...!!!

!but w/e.....its cool!!!lol............................................................

okay sooo that's pretty much it!!!!!!

<3beka lynn